I’d like to talk about friends. I can miss that, in my daily live. Do I have to be patient? Is it even there for me?

At this moment you are not looking for a friend, but you are looking for distraction. Well, your Automatic Pilot makes you believe you’re missing a buddy, but what you miss is contact with your Self.
A friend would lead your attention away from the steps you (at this point) do not dare to take yet. That’s what triggers this longing.
It has to do with expectation, fear of rejection and insecurity. And you will have to deal with those emotions even more, so put your energy in that. If you can open up yourself without expectation, in full acceptation of who you are, that buddy will find you.

From Energy to Energy,